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When do all these thoughts and feelings start? Maybe it started when we broke up for the first time. I have always wanted the best for you, and maybe it is the reason why I am not with you because I know that our love is not going to work knowing our situation, distance love. I wonder if I will ever love someone again in the way that I have been loving you. I wonder to myself that if  I will be able to meet someone and forget you. Am I really going to forget you? At the beginning of everything, I believe in a distance love but what happened to me and our love? If it is not meant to be, please I need a signal, so I can take you away of all my plans, so and be able to go ahead with my life, and do not write you again. I think about why I love someone who is a thousand of miles. Besides, I start thinking about what is the true meaning of love? Every part of my body loves you, how can I ignore you and stop loving you if you gave me all the support in my craziness and sadness days and that is why I am still in love with you. I am in a discussion between my brain and heart. My brain says do not do it, but my heart says do it.  I do not think that what I am going to do is prudent, and I do not know what I am hoping after doing that, but maybe it can calm myself, so I will be able to start again with my life and meet with someone who is not far. I am going to write and tell you all the feelings and after doing this I promise myself that is going to be the end of all these thoughts and feelings for you. I listened to my heart in instead of my brain but now I know that I had to listen to my brain. My heart is broken now. You say you are in a relationship, but you are telling me that you still love me like the first day when we meet. How can I love someone that says that love me but is already with someone else? Is it possible? I care a lot for you, and I really have deep feelings for you, but I deserve more than that, so you can be with her because you can love only one person not two, and I am not going to be your second option.! It is not fair! so I am sorry but I deserve to love someone too as the way you are loving her.

Lhamo,Dolma

HUT101 1300

Professor J-polish Problem with English

Lhamo: I don’t know how to read, I have to learn-how to read English first, so that I can at least know how write so that I can communicate with my friends,  but I have to learn how to make a sentence by my self, so that my friends can understand me if I can speak English properly “mom” can you please turn off the music I can’t concentrate myself when hear those music , I know you love Tibetan musics sorry but you can listen to music while I am done studying okay. Hope you will understand me! Can’t you at least just let’s me stay in side” are you serious it is dmmm cold out side I cant not go out and do my study while it snowing. omg are you going nuts or something can’t you see through the window??) : yeah yeah!! I am doing really will by you districting me every minute of my study (Pen drop on the floor tpppppppppp~~~~ cursing fuck) omg can you guys please leave me alone? I have to improve my English okay, please don’t make me get made. ( shouting at the door) Hey you can’t say that those days English is everything you dumm. ( waking around the room suhbhhhh) mom I thought that you gonna go to temple today? Why not today? you always go there and pray. Hmm okay as your wish I won’t force you so come down. (Mumbling~~~ laugh) oh why are you dressing up for mom? Are you gonna have a date or something? Oh yep you are old sooooo I can’t say that but you looks like going somewhere important though, not being rude. Don’t forget to buy me some snack please spicy ones, mom go now don’t get late, yo I really gonna know who you gonna meet friend or whatever it is,( opening door zuhhhh) wow what an interesting having a mom like her ( self taking) where she gonna go now, and it getting dark, dmmmmm will she gonna have a boyfriend, ohhh no that’s will be so embracing, ( confusion scratching head hurrrrr ) shit what if she gonna go to uncles house, no that’s won’t happening, right? Let’s found out when she come back. Yeah it better ask her about this that will be nice if she be honest, yep let’s wait.

Lorraine Hansberry’s “A Raisin In The Sun” truly deserves all the recognition it has gotten over the years since it’s release. Hansberry truly grasps the hardships for black families living in lesser wealthy neighborhood and the struggles for financial stability. When money is mixed in with a family who all separately need it for seperate reasons, the risen stakes make for even better development. It allows us as the audience to fully experience the characters relationships towards one another before and after the stakes increase. Raising the question, could family bonds truly stand the test of time, or the test of money? Everything, from the casual starting beginning to the conflicting ends, kept me glues to the pages making it hard to stop myself from finishing but when I approached the finish it became hard to allow myself to. I recommend this classic to all readers/theatre lovers especially those of color due to the fact that this is our perspective, our life, and our story.

I promise you it wasn’t what you think. I love you, and you  know I love you! Since the day I laid eyes on you I vowed to always do right by you and swear I have done nothing but stay true to that vow because….I fell in love with you. Baby, I’m in love with you! You’re the kind of love that never waivers. the kind of love that never fails. The kind of love that makes me want to be better everyday.  I know we’ve been rough these past few months have been rough but I wouldn’t do that to you. I would never do that to you….but what reason do you have to believe me? I’m just the screw up who couldn’t accomplish anything because I hurt those I love. Everyone else gave up on me but you…or have you too? I can’t handle you giving up on me too. You’re the only reason I keep going, the reason I breathe, the reason I haven’t given up on myself. So you think I would risk my everything for some chick at a bar?! Baby, I would rather have everything I need from the ONLY person I love than to satisfy an urge with someone who I know wouldn’t be laying beside me when I wake up. I regret ever even leaving the house last night. Instead of laying next to you i decided to leave just to experience a feeling even I don’t understand. I was scared baby, I scared of myself and I what I would’ve done if I didn’t remember what I would be coming home to. I don’t deserve you, I realized that the moment I met that chick. I asked myself, “Jermaine…”, “Jermaine, what are you doing?! You have a good woman waiting for you at home, she expects you home. She’s a good woman. A special woman. A rare woman and If you mess this up, you’ll never forgive yourself. Of course yah mama would never let you forget.” You know what my mamma said when she met you, that day I introduced you? She said “My Jermaine finally done something right” she said “Finally”…. Do you hate me? Because I’m not a man who would just admit he cheated on you and leave? Instead I’m a man who almost made a mistake and I’m asking for your forgiveness? You know what, I know I don’t deserve you but I don’t think you deserve me either! I’m a good man who chose you over another and always second guesses if I ever try the opposite. So you know what I’ll leave, at least I can leave with my pride. At least I know I’m not the stubborn woman who purposely let a good man go….(Leaves)