When do all these thoughts and feelings start? Maybe it started when we broke up for the first time. I have always wanted the best for you, and maybe it is the reason why I am not with you because I know that our love is not going to work knowing our situation, distance love. I wonder if I will ever love someone again in the way that I have been loving you. I wonder to myself that if I will be able to meet someone and forget you. Am I really going to forget you? At the beginning of everything, I believe in a distance love but what happened to me and our love? If it is not meant to be, please I need a signal, so I can take you away of all my plans, so and be able to go ahead with my life, and do not write you again. I think about why I love someone who is a thousand of miles. Besides, I start thinking about what is the true meaning of love? Every part of my body loves you, how can I ignore you and stop loving you if you gave me all the support in my craziness and sadness days and that is why I am still in love with you. I am in a discussion between my brain and heart. My brain says do not do it, but my heart says do it. I do not think that what I am going to do is prudent, and I do not know what I am hoping after doing that, but maybe it can calm myself, so I will be able to start again with my life and meet with someone who is not far. I am going to write and tell you all the feelings and after doing this I promise myself that is going to be the end of all these thoughts and feelings for you. I listened to my heart in instead of my brain but now I know that I had to listen to my brain. My heart is broken now. You say you are in a relationship, but you are telling me that you still love me like the first day when we meet. How can I love someone that says that love me but is already with someone else? Is it possible? I care a lot for you, and I really have deep feelings for you, but I deserve more than that, so you can be with her because you can love only one person not two, and I am not going to be your second option.! It is not fair! so I am sorry but I deserve to love someone too as the way you are loving her.